Hope tests!

My pre-Boards are on. Or, as they say in FIITJEE, my 'Hope tests' are on.

Hope tests?! Really?! 

Tomorrow's the last exam- Chemistry. I just want to get this year over with.

Oh oh! 4 out of 7 students from our college who cleared the first stage of the KVPY exam, cleared the interview too. Congrats you guys :)

I was reading 'Chicken soup for the Indian Romantic soul' the other day... and there was a really nice story about how a young woman handles her break-up. After a lot of crying and shouting, she takes her friend's advice and decides to get rid of all his stuff from her life. She throws out all the perfume bottles, deletes all his emails.The cute soft toy he gifted- she gives it to a small girl in her building, a personal compilation of comic strips- she gives it to an old couple who are her neighbours. Soon, she realizes how these gestures make people the people around her so happy. While going over her things, she finds a small note in one of the cards her ex had made her which said,

"Law of conservation of love: It can never be destroyed. It can only be converted from one form to another."

And suddenly, it made sense.

True na? 

Raaaaaiiin.

It rained here yesterday!! Lasted only for a short while.. but it was still amazing. Rain has always been very special to me. The feel of raindrops on my skin, the cold breeze blowing, splashing in the puddles- LOVE IT.


Here's a list of some of my most favourite moments in the rain:


* When I was leaving Bombay(my dad was transferred to Vizag) and it rained on my last evening in NOFRA. Vishal came to drop me to the bus stop... but I just didn't want to leave. I kept saying "Okay, I'll go in the next bus." After sometime of waiting there, he said "You wanna walk?" 
And we walked all the way to Woodhouse Road in the rain. That was fun. :D


* All of those times when we were in tuitions, and it poured outside, Shreya and I would get so upset that we couldn't go. Once classes would get over, we'd literally run out and start jumping in the rain. If it'd stopped by then we would stand at Insaf bus stop and pray to God- "Bhagwaan baarish kara do!"- like 5 year olds.


* Kartik was in Vizag last November for his Diwali vacation. The weather became all rainy rainy for those 1-2 weeks. He was waiting at Insaf bus stop for me... and it suddenly started raining a lottt. He called me and said "Hey wait till it stops for a while and then come okay? Don't get wet!" and I just said "Ya ya fine." 
I was there in the next 20 seconds :P
And he had this really cute you-just-won't-listen-to-me expression on his face... Haha! 


* This happened sometime last year... August I think. I had a really bad day at college, followed by an exam, and I was in such a weird mood when I got home. Put on some How I met your Mother episodes and settled into bed to stay there till dinner. My phone rang- Aashna (Aashi lolo many poko! :D) was calling me. She sounded so happy "Aksharaaaaa! It's raining!! Did you see? Come bahar na!" and I went to my balcony and it sure was raining. We decided to meet up in 2 minutes. I raaaaaaan outside... and I couldn't find her! Kept walking around, grinning at everyone passing by. Finally I saw her and I gave her a biiiiig hug! Too cute she is, my Aashi lolo.


* Once, my parents had gone out for a party and my brother and I were alone at home. Around 9-ish, it started to rain. And as usual, I got super excited and asked my brother if he would come with me outside. He was hesitant initially, but he finally agreed. I think that was one of our rare bro-sis moments. We were splashing in the puddles and jumping around and it was sooooo much fun!




"Life's not about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain."

Long time, no post

So I FINALLY saw Band Baaja Baarat. And phir toh bas decide kar liya.. if I don't know what to make of my life at any point- event management, here I come!


For once, my Valentine's day was actually nice. I think giving someone flowers is one of the sweetest gestures. And the flowers + chocolates melted my heart. :) 
There was a small Valentine's dance or something at the Institute here... had a great time there last night. The walls had heart-shaped balloons all over the place. I think it's really nice when people celebrate these holidays and festivals with spirit. I had this OC-craze phase recently... I downloaded the first season of the show and then I just got hooked onto it. Anyway, in the show, I love how the Cohens are so involved in the festive season and celebrate each holiday. 
And Sandy and Kirsten are just too cool.


Things at school- sorry, college(Ya. Apparently FIITJEE is a junior college. It's fun correcting people when they say it, but seriously, we're NOTHING like a college. It's just shitty uniforms, a shitty routine and shitty studies)- have been kind of weird. My principal told me that he wouldn't let me write my Inter first year Boards. And I know he wouldn't actually do it, but when he shouted at me like that I felt reeeaaaaally bad. I'm not used to my mum being called by teachers because they want to 'talk to her' about me. Turns out my mum's not mad at me. She totally took the Physics Department head's case. :D
My Centrehead wasn't there when she came. But she said she wants to speak to him too. I love my mom :) :) 
There's a song by Taylor Swift- The best day- it reminds me so much of my parents.


Mr PS160's birthdaaayyy is coming up. Sucks that I won't be there... but we'll Skype it or something. Missing you! 


Well.. gtg now. Coffee calls.


Good morning!

My thoughts right now.

My Chemistry teacher has a standard line for anything out-of-subject I say... "Grow up Akshara, you're not a kid anymore." And every time she says that, it's like a little part of me cries inside. Makes me think of all that lies ahead- college, work, responsibilities... *sigh* :|
I love what I had. I love what's there now. And I love what's coming.
But there are times, when you sit down and just think. About yourself, about your life. Been doing that a lot lately. 
And it scares me. Not in the 'oh-god-I'll-have-to-get-out-of-my-comfort-zone' way.. it's more of the 'what-if-nothing-works-out' feeling. 
I'm not a very opinionated person... and I'm VERY indecisive. I've been told that I worry too much about the future. But then again, my annoyingly optimistic side keeps me going. I still feel like I've just moved to Vizag and suddenly the four years that have passed, seem like a few days. Time goes by SO FAST. 
I was just telling my mum the other day that very soon I'm gonna have to pack up my stuff and leave... she just laughed and said "Yaaa, I still can't believe you're 16!"
Hell, I can't believe I'm 16. 


Well, there's a whole generation with me on this, so that's some consolation. I hope each and every one of us ends up in some place good, doing something we love.


This post was supposed to be about how I don't wanna grow up. :/
Anywayyy.


Lesson learnt: Stop thinking so much!!